Breathe – July 26, 2023

Breathe – July 26, 2023

“If you are exhausted about your heart’s obsession with the fixed past and your mind’s focus on the uncertain future Your lungs are the perfect place for you There is no yesterday in your lungs There is no tomorrow there either There is only now There is only inhale...
Aging Revisited – Blog – June 1, 2023

Aging Revisited – Blog – June 1, 2023

I am compelled once again to write about aging. I am on the cusp of a birthday that will land me solidly in my late 60’s. After two years of unpacking the emotional upheaval that emerged around my 65th birthday, here I am. The process is speeding up. F*k. As a...
April Avoidance – Blog April 26, 2023

April Avoidance – Blog April 26, 2023

Over the past few months, I have been blessed with opportunities to spend time in the mountains of Western Canada and on the beaches of the Southeastern United States. In between, I have been home in our beautiful valley, enduring episodes of snow, mud, wind and...
Instead of Acceptance – March 26th, 2023

Instead of Acceptance – March 26th, 2023

In the past I’ve reluctantly dabbled with the word “acceptance”.  I’ve dug around my psyche attempting to uncover what it is that leads me to struggle and resist even uttering the syllables, of which there are three – a favourite number of mine.  Wikipedia tells...
Generousity – Feb. 15, 2023 Blog

Generousity – Feb. 15, 2023 Blog

Over coffee the other day a long-time friend looked straight into my eyes – how are you – she asked. I immediately felt a flutter of discomfort in my chest. She’s not one that would settle with my noncommittal “all is well” or “I’m good thanks” followed by a well...
Finitude – Feb. 2, 2023 Blog

Finitude – Feb. 2, 2023 Blog

The themes of finitude and dying are consuming time in my day. I’m not sure why. I am healthy and fortunate that no recent grief has take over my heart and mind. I am in the last half of my sixth decade. I want to believe the actuarial tables that tell me I have 20...
The Inbetween – Engage Blog

The Inbetween – Engage Blog

I am a person of urgency and not enough. As I unpack my life, bit by bit, attempting to source an understanding of where I might find a core of peace and self acceptance, the excruciating truths are my teachers. Family folklore is adamant that I learned to swim before...
Musings Update – Engage Blog

Musings Update – Engage Blog

At some point in the early spring, I noticed an interesting intersection of weariness and creative restlessness. My routine of weekly blog writing was feeling challenging; I feared it had become hollow. I was being drawn further into the notion of a larger project as...
Spring Cleaning – Engage Blog

Spring Cleaning – Engage Blog

I usually experience the energetic surge to evaluate, purge and stretch my comfort zone in the fall. September is my New Year – characterized by the compulsion to examine my clothes closet, my bookshelves, my waistline and the files taking space in my mind. All...
Mind Vacation – Engage Blog

Mind Vacation – Engage Blog

As the ides of April drag on – with a blizzard yesterday morning and endless puddles of thawing mud – I am experiencing the highs and lows assigned by my consciousness. I am uncomfortably aware of the connection between my ears and the stress centre in my brain. And...